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Sometimes I'm almost certain that the Kingdom of Heaven would be better off if I were not around
That God would somehow stop making time to pick me up out of my self inflicted mess
and nurture someone else with double the annointing

I mean by my actions I'm giving God the finger.

F*CK YOU! Is in a sence what I'm saying to God. GOD!
The one who created everything. The one who holds my only chance for life after death.
The one who gives me breath.............joy...........life.

I'm almost positive that one day God will say to himself. "That boy will just NEVER learn!" and ZAP or POOF, or whatever... LION....*maybe* and some lion showes up in Canada and mauls me to death or something.

God why do you even bother with me?
I do NOTHING but insult you by my actions,
destroy your trust
and crush your heart with my insatiable desire for eternal destruction

I am convinced Lord.... no I can't even say that...I don't act like your my Lord.
God, Yahweh.. do me and your Kingdom a favor and take over my body
Let some angel inhabit it or something
Don't let me be a spiritual waste of space